My promise to you

Do you still remembered what I promised you few years ago? I promised you that I will do anything for you with my best ability. I always deliver my promises to you. As I've told you before, I don't simply make a promise to anyone. But for you, I'm willing to do anything that you asked for. I never did anything like this for anyone before except you. Not even my family or boy friend.

Recently, I started assembling the puzzle you bought. It really tested my patience and determination. In the beginning, I was really struggling hard to figure out where to start. I don't even know what I'm supposed to do. After reflecting back of the times when we assemble puzzle together, I did groupings and segregation for it like how we used to do. I finally know what I'm doing. I spent a few sleepless nights till morning trying to finish it quickly and frame it back for you. Finally, I managed to complete it in 5 days. This is the fastest I can go. Really hope that you'll appreciate it.


The Sound of Colours: The Lucky Apple

- I Do Cherish You -

Heartbroken and alone

Why do you have to treat me like this? What have I done wrong? Did you punish me like this because I'm in love with you? I have never done and will never do anything to harm you. There are plenty of other people who fancy you as well but why am I the exception? Just because I'm a girl? I didn't like any other girls except you. You're not being fair to me. I didn't hope for anything or any further progress. I just want you to know the truth and I didn't want to lie to you. Actually the main cause for me to think or realized that I fall for you is the people around you. Everyone has been warning you and saying to you that I might be a lesbian. The fact is I didn't even think of it at all until you kept teasing me continuously and I got confused with the statement and started questioning myself.

I only want us to be like how we used to be. I don't mind you being with another person and I also hope that you can be happy. Everything I do for you, I only want to see you happy. I can do anything for you. I really mean anything. Is this like the old Chinese saying that you give a shoe to someone means you're sending that person away from your life? Both of us didn't even think of this issue at all until I realized recently you bought me a shoe and this incident happened.

Yesterday, I already chase my boyfriend out of my house. It's getting more and more difficult for me to face him. To the extend I didn't want to make love with him anymore. I just can't do it and I need some space on my own. The fact that you are deserting me are too hard for me to accept. I kept telling you not to desert me because I know you will do so one day. It is so heart breaking to hear you saying that.

Since the day you told me that you heard the truth, I already predicted that you will ask me to give you back your house keys. It is just a matter of when. Yesterday when I got your message and before I read it, I already know that you were going to ask about the keys. You even asked me to pass everything to your mum and you have to send another text 'I mean everything'. I was really saddened and I couldn't sleep but to continue to assemble the pig puzzle till 8.30am.

My biggest wish for the year is to reconcile with you and be together again as sisters like how we used to be. Every time I assemble the pieces of puzzle, reminds me of the times we used to had assembling puzzle together at your old resident.





I'm half way done assembling your pig puzzle. Hopefully I can frame it up before end of the month.

-I Do Cherish You-

The truth revealed

After our possible last trip, I had been sending plenty of messages and tried calling you. You cancel my call or your line is busy every time I called you or you didn't reply my messages. I felt that something was not right. It is not the usual way how we used to communicate. We at least give each other a message or call almost daily but it has been 5 days already and I haven't talk to you. So I took the initiative to text you and it goes like that.

"Hey, Happy New Year! How are u? Haven't been talking to you. Have u started your medication?"

"I'm ok. Don't wanna talk"

"Ok.. Hope u're fine. I'll be available for u if u need me. Will take a month break from work to rest and look for new job to start in feb. Take care"

"I actually heard what u said on that night u were drunk. I am very hurt and disappointed. I treat u like a true sister but in return it is some other form of Rship to u, regardless it is in your conscious or unconscious mind. Honestly I have fear towards u now, whenever I think about it.. Maybe we should stop seeing each other personally for sometime, I do not know how to face u.. If anythg official, u may still text me. I will reply u."

"I actually knew that u heard but since u said u didn't, I didn't want to repeat it again. I regretted saying that to u but that's the truth that I can't explain. I tried very hard convincing myself to treat u like my sister and I didn't want u to know the truth. I thought that being with someone else might change the truth and stop me from thinking of u. I already predicted that this will happen and I know it's hard for u to accept it. I had been forgetting this feeling long time but it came back again. I'm very sorry I hurt u. I'm really sorry that I let u down. I hope u can keep this within us as I told u before. Sorry again."

After sending all these messages, instantly I felt that my heart and soul was falling apart. I can't believe that this is happening to me. My tears were about to roll down naturally but I managed to hold and swallow it back as my boyfriend is next to me. The pain in my heart was unbearable. I was crying hard in my heart but I have to show a poker face on the outside. I find it hard for me to face him after telling you the truth. I also felt very bad for adding more complications to your already-complicated-life.

Whether or not we stay apart, I'll still remember the good times we had and our interests in common.



- I Do Cherish You -